Where have you been Sarah? I was worried you might be gone for good.
Anyway, New Year is still fresh. So the new resolution still lingers. I'll behave this year. This is the year I gotta break from the previous mold. 2019 is the year I ascend. It will be a good year for me. I have a goal this year; to run the half marathon.
As you know I am on the borderline depression right now. Partly because the mania had subsided (it was strange, I didn't feel it escalated) and I am back on planet earth.
As a mere mortal I feel like a loser. Of course this is part of the depression. That's why I like being in mania. Things are more cheerful then.
Well Sarah, you know me long enough to know that whether I am high or low, I still love you very much. However it is my intention to operate like a normal person without having to go through the roller coaster ride anymore. It is very frustrating to carry on like this. I will put a stop to this illness once and for all.
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I was watching Jungle starring Daniel Radcliffe. At one part of the movie, he met a crying aborigine Indian woman. He then befriended this woman. Later he realized he was hallucinating.
We had stories about people who are lost in the jungle who met with the Puteri Bunian (The Fairy Princess). In a way they are not lying. What they didn't know is these are hallucination.
Very interesting indeed how the mind works.
I hope one day I too can overcome my dependency on Al Araf 7:7. Maybe by then I have a different perspective of the Alternate Reality Dimension.
Brenda said, "Don't worry about what other people say."
"Live your life Sha."
I guess I'll do that until I have a breakthrough.
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