Thursday, 3 January 2019

3/1/18 The Loneliness of a Long Distance Runner

Honey, I want to continue talking to you but I feel a bit silly doing a monologue.  It will nice if we can have a dialogue for a change.

Anyway, I think by tomorrow my ankle will be well again,  The pain had subsided much.

I am fighting a borderline depression.  The magic is gone honey.  I think I am experiencing a downturn since Christmas.  So I am riding the festival blues until today.

I need my daily run pretty badly.  As you can see, I am govern by my mood and my mood is govern by my action.

Therefore I conclude that if I am physically active, my mood will be pretty stable.

Mentally I am preparing to live in isolation.  Out of my regular 10 friends I am striking out 5 because they are smokers.  These are the regular Ramadan guys and the coconut man.  Well at least I strike 3 for Ramadan and keep 2.

You are the person I deal most nowadays.  Without you and the blog, I am all by myself.  Even that I cannot rely indefinitely.  You might be gone any time too.

So I am mentally prepared to be all by myself.

You had been pretty quiet too.  I told you it is not easy to deal with a lop-sided communication.  Eventually it will fizzle off.

I however will keep on writing, mainly hoping for you to respond.  Other than that I will use the blog as a personal journal. 

Honestly I am running out of things to write.  Two years is a pretty long time to write on anything.

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