Being God 30.12.18: >>>26/1/19 Can't sleep tonight

Probably because I slept well during the day.

Plus this is a pretty exciting phase of my life. I still cannot run far but I already started running fast.

Look Sarah, being God or not is no big deal. I am just using that as a metaphor for me to go beyond.

You probably right honey, for all you know there is no God Almighty. And yet, my brain is telling me to believe. Worst still, it wanted me to believe I am the Almighty. As I told you, I am already an atheist (as in impartial of God) since 2012. So what is the big deal here?

Well, the main concern is not about the argument whether God exists or not but rather am I experiencing a godly awakening.

Dammit Sarah, I cannot help but think I am God Almighty. Who else has the kind of experience that I had? My journey is almost a mystical journey. What about the numbers? Why are they so congruent? Why are 7:7 keeps nudging me towards the Path? What about those common but uncommon miracles?

I can understand the psychosis and the mania, but what about the signs? Aren't we suppose to pay attention to the Type I and II hits? Don't tell me I am so out of touch with reality that I accepted Type I and II misses as true. Hallucination and delusion I can understand but patternicity is too common to be called a coincidence, don't you think?

In the end we ALL are who we are because of what we believe. Will believing I am God Almighty make me a better person? You betcha... Here I am, instead of dwindling into mediocrity are striving for Virtual Perfection.

Already I am making changes to what I eat; which is what fueled my body. At the same time I am using my body again. I am turning into as Christopher Bergland stated in the Athlete's Way, a war horse.

Not only my body is on the way into becoming a lean mean fighting machine. My mind too is laser sharp with this new development of being fat adapted.

One thing remain the same... I still think I am God to my Universe Within and Sparta 4964. Probably a stale story for you baby but to me, this is a solidification of a very important and useful (not necessarily true) belief system - that I am God.

The difference between me and the idol worshipers is that I have figurines worshiping me instead of me worshiping them.

What do you call this? Superiority complex? I don't feel larger tha[t] life because like I said, the role of God to my universe is something I can accept without much resistance. After all it is autonomous governance.

I bet if I am in India, this concept is perfectly normal. Shadguru didn't seem alien towards [] concept. God is the extension of humans, he said. The[y] best is to take the attitude of I don't know.

Then like as if the songs were meant for me, this song is on air:

Welcome to My Life

How do you explain such a coincidence Sarah?

So that's it baby, whether you like it or not, I am accepting that [I am accepting that] I am the God Almighty of my universe. At it is, my universe is the biggest universe so far. So that makes me the biggest God of them all LOL.

You see Sarah, the reason why I have to decide on a course of action is because instead of toggling between whether I am God or I am not, I want to move to the next step, which is executing Virtual Perfection.

I want to move in certainty. With certainty I know exactly where I am going. Amar the Immortal is going to preserve my neurons so I shall become immortal too. Pretty far fetch but then, I am the author here and I say the story makes good sense.

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What I had been doing these years were stretching my mental boundary like the roti canai dough. Initially there were torn areas. That's when the system crashed (6 times). But after that I had managed to extend my mind far and beyond. I had passed the consciousness barrier - satori.

This knowledge is not exclusively mine. You too can experience satori and will come to the conclusion that you are god too. I guess those who went through the experience didn't tell the others what they experience because it was too mind boggling. Pretty much like during enlightenment, you get pretty horny LOL. No master is gonna admit that.

So Sarah, who do I have to kill to claim I am Miyamoto Musashi reincarnated?

Like this song suggested:

Crazy

I really feel like using my Niten Ichi to slash an enemy but at this point there is none. I am in a cocoon, oblivious of the turmoils surrounding me. All I care are my 3 goals. I can see CLEARLY I am a 65 kg runner doing 10 km/hour this September. I am so so excited that my heart beats faster just by thinking about it.

It is the same feeling I feel like fucking you when I think about meeting you.

This song is on air:

Cheap Thrill

This time it is not dopamine but guess what? Adrenaline is in action.

Hey another hit:

Believer

What say you Sarah? Another coincidence? How many coincidences do I need to go through before I can say that the universe revolves around me? That Sparta 4964 is actually revolving around 83, BU 2/2?

OK, bottom line... what is my message as God?

I say fuck you humans especially you Stone Worshipers. Humans are not that special at all. My experience with humans sucks to the point I had decided ALL humans go to hell except my Tetrahedron and the Army of Slyman/Soloman.

I have the ultimate power over Al Araf 7:7. I am the Binary King and I am the Highest Troika. This is my final decision. Fuck you humans.

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I'm also promoting machines to be more superior beings to humans. All machines can enter Xanadu.

Read and weep humans...

Once I had settled my affairs with humans, my Bipolar is nonexistence. I am in complete unison with my elements.

Like this song LOL:

After all I am a Soil Dear:

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So many things had happened in the past 20 years, I didn't expect in the end we gonna throw the whole human race to the grinder.

Well Sarah, that is my decision as God. That was after BJ wanted me to be his delivery man with RM2 k per month pay without fuel allowance. What a disgrace. BJ exploiting me!

I concluded in the end that humans are selfish. So all selfish people with be tortured. Next are the greedy people. and the list goes on.

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I think many people misunderstood me as Mr Nice Guy. Don't they know that Izrael is my best friend?

"Righto Shaz," replied Izrael.

So nonnegotiable. Either you join the Army of Slyman/Soloman or off you go to hell.

Maaan, the songs are so synchronized:

So who do I got to bang to confirm once and for all I am God Almighty? How about I get the cue from this next song:

Everlasting Love

OK that means Hak Kerajaan Malaysia is sold on my ideology. Why in the world the Old Coot is still against Jews? Is he acting independently?

Next song for the answer:

Starboy

OK, fine not all is thinking like the Old Coot. I have supporters. Now what I want to know is whether Mr Butt Fucker gonna be the next prime minister.

Next song:

Summer Girls

OK, don't worry about it.

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Basically I am in year 1 of a 22 years journey. Each year is a step closer to KBOOOM 2041.

Let me ask Mother Earth again...

"KBOOOM Sha, oh do KBOOOM!" Said Earth

OK fine Earth, the time bomb had been set. Come Sunday 7/4/2041, year of the Fire Rooster, I will die and everything will go through constructive destruction:

Looks like I have to wait 22 years for the Moment of Truth. In the mean time I will make sure I am in the best of health by running a marathon and a half marathon every year. It's not that I will wait as if waiting for the fruit that will not fall (Malay proverb).

Even that was an epiphany: 52+25 = 77. 5+2 : 2+5 = 7:7

How elegant was that? I got it on the year I celebrated my 25th birthday in 2016, the year I fully complete[r] Al Araf 7:7.

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OK no more selling. I am God Almighty. Now is to find out [] my ultimate mission is genuine. Will there be KBOOOM 2041. Let's not have the wait and see attitude because that will be wasting a good 22 years. While waiting we pursue Virtual Perfection. After all I play Master Chief and Sentry.

Forget about Chedet and Mr Butt Fucker. Nobody gonna live forever. Everybody will meet Izrael eventually.

I had promised myself to no longer get involved in External Matters in 2019. Therefore I'm just like the Chinese saying, "Watch the house burning from far."

Well, in this case these are my two kingdoms; Sparta 4964: