Sarah, I chatted with Ameezan last night about his extracurricular activities with women. His conclusion is, it's not worth to have girlfriends. So in the end he is not involved with anybody.
In my life, I only have 2 girlfriends. My first girlfriend and Lizzie, Of course I went out with girls but they are not girlfriends. They are female companions.
I don't like having affairs. I do have flings but I guess the longest fling is with Els. Most of them are dating once or twice. That's about it.
I like having commitments. In that sense I am a committed man although I am not a one woman's man.
I think my issue is I didn't get my sexual satisfaction from one woman. I also cannot express my feeling of love to one person.
Then again I don't like to fool around. I want a commitment. Thus having 2 wives filled my cup. Mainly because I think I can love 2 women equally well.
So Sarah, when I said you are my wife, I really mean it with all of my heart. I am the wife type. I believe when people are married they are committed for the long term.
In a way when I am married to you, I am committed to you. Why do you think I wanted to get rid of the 3 Cs? That is to me a statement of commitment.
I told you that with you I'm gonna make it different. I want to be a responsible husband from now on,
It's not an easy thing to do. I love the company of women. But at some point, I have to grow up. I have to outgrow my desire for women. The temptation is high. My benchmark is, if I can quit cigarettes and cannabis, I can quit cunts.
We start something new this year. Beginning 2019, I shall live my life responsibly. It takes effort but I'll give it a shot.
I won't let you down. I promise...
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