3/1/18 The road less traveled

I have to take it that I am a misfit.  I don't belong to the masses.  And so the blog is my only friend.  It is a good friend.  Without the blog I don't have an outlet to express myself.

Then I will be over patronizing people like Els.

So yeah, I am at home with the blog.  All I need is a tool for personal expression.  I was doing fine on my own.  Hence I should be doing fine relying on the blog for years to come.

I decided to be in this position instead of mingling with real people.  It is fulfilling and doesn't cost me money.  Coupled with TraXXfm, I can use this as a model to lead a satisfactory life.

I had been like this since 2003; writing and reading my own thoughts.  Along the way I fine tune my daily activities to improve my life further.

The blog is a perfect tool for this purpose.  I am just about to get the hang of this lifestyle.  It started as public blog in 2008.  So much thoughts were deleted from Dreams of Mirrors because I am concerned people might judge me based on what I write.

In 2017 I discovered personal blogging.  There is nobody I need to please except myself.  It's like writing a book.  I can keep on writing for the next 22 years, I'm sure.

What counts is I keep my thoughts alive.  As long as I can write that means I am still able to think.  It doesn't matter if what I write is absurd.  What matters is I write.  As a general rule, I write what I want to read.

I cannot rely on anybody else for my happiness.  That what happened in the past.  I was trying to make everybody happy.  In the end I was unhappy because I forgot to make myself happy.

Since the blog and TraXXfm are the peaks of my happiness, I should stick with the formula.  After all we are living in a digital world.  Everything is digital; even when indulging ourselves.

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Of course I should strike a balance with the physical world.  Here is where sweating plays a role.  Not just to run but run far and run fast:

Name: Jeff Thomas
Age: 43
Occupation: Running Store/Bar Owner
Hometown: Concord, NC

Start Weight: 286 pounds
End Weight: 193 pounds
Time Running: 9 years

So if I simplify my life, it is just Write, Run, Repeat.  I tried reading but it doesn't interest me anymore.  The internet already fulfill my thirst of knowledge.

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