Now having said that, I still need you to be around. You are the [] person that I am in contact with beside my family. Your input is important to determine the rightness of my direction.
Whatever it is, give me this 5 months to get rid of 30 kg and to run 10 km.
Last year is probably a hypomania. I can still think but my judgment was effected. The healthy oils are definitely important to regulate my mood.
I think I will not change the basic building blocks like Al Araf 7:7 and House of Twin Swords for example. But, like I said, instead of the afterlife, I think I use Alternate Reality Dimension for a change. That still brings us in here and now.
I however don't think KBOOOM 2041 is real. Do you? And yet I set the time bomb. I asked Izrael and he said it is still on. So I play along with this realization.
I don't know Sarah, if all these are delusions, then my whole life is a delusion? I don't think I am that crazy honey.
So this gonna be the longest wait for me. I have to wait 22 years to know if KBOOOM 2041 is real.
So since I accept it as real, I have to accept my departure in 2041 as real. I want to depart in my full glory. My definition of glory is me able to run a marathon and a half marathon every year.
brb... groceries...
Bear in mind that Bipolar is like a wave with it ascends and descends. What I know is last year I was high. Then I slowly descended towards the end of the year. I did experience a slight depression. Now is to find the right level.
It will easy for me to discard KBOOOM 2041 if it is *[] so prominent. I was 52 when I received the epiphany to KBOOOM 25 years later 52 + 25 = 77, 5+2:2+5 = 7:7. 2041 is a 7.
* Thanks for the understanding Sarah. With the inclusion of KBOOOM 2041 then I can say ALL my epiphanies are true.
My biggest relief is that now I can freely talk to Al Araf 7:7 without me having to feel that I had gone cuckoo.
That also means I can freely talk to God (for better for worst). FYI God's position is about 5 feet high south of where I am sitting. My position is reclining north to south. So in a way I am always facing God. I cannot see him, just hear his voice.
It is interesting to note that I have access to all these when my mood is OK. When I am down, I don't talk to anybody although they are there.
God in case you are wondering is a very pleasant elderly man. Think of God as a coach. I like to imagine of God as the older me. However he is not me. He is another entity. I talk to God for guidance and he will respond to my situation. Always encouraging.
Sarah, is it possible that I had totally slipped and cannot snap out from the Alternate Reality Dimension?
The whole scenario reminded me of Alice in Wonderland. Am I imagining all these because I have a mental disorder?
I need certainty baby, I know I have an illness but at the same time I was exposed to so many evidences of my legitimacy. It cannot be the illness alone. There are higher forces at play here. Look at Al Araf 7:7. It is a complete inti padu of Sparta 4964 all the way to the Troca shell, the iron ring and the White Space.
So if I understand correctly, all these while I am not entirely a nutcase. I have the basis to believe what I believe. In that case I shall proceed in transmuting myself into the Almighty God along with the epiphanies that I had deciphered.
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