1/2/19 @@@The 6 Points to Winning Day 32

I will win 1 day at a time:

1. Wake up latest 7:00 am - Woke up 6:30 am
2. Exercise 1 hour in the morning - To Sleepy
3. Eat 16/8  starting 2:00 pm - Ate peanut butter bread and chocolate bun
4. Exercise 1 hour in the afternoon - No go today
5. Eat LCHF at 8:00 pm -  Totally a goner, Merry Brown Rice and Naan Cheese
6. Sleep at 11.00 pm - Purposely sleeps late since this afternoon I slept like a log

That's the minimum to win the day.

First thing that comes to mind:  eat.  I am back to the old mindset.  Need to stop this kind of thoughts.

Then I thought, the reason I am not into religion is because I am a liberal.

I am losing my grip on LCHF.

Started Nicorette before I get back to smoking again.  Thank goodness.  I am starting to get depressed.

Let's conclude that dope makes me crazy.  No more dope.

However, I say, it is OK to be crazy as long as I am entertaining my own crazy thoughts.  That the crazy thoughts don't interfere with others.  Although it is not real, it is just another alternate reality.  I don't have to subscribe to the thoughts of the masses.

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According to Dr Amapreet, it is OK to be in hypomania.  I say it's OK to have divergent thoughts.  I am ready to live with my own quirky reality to a certain extent.

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You see, once I write something unconventional in my Blogspot, its ranking in my Google search moved to page 1.  Kinda ironic isn't it?  As if Google is agreeing with what I write.

Anyway, I'm glad I am on Nicorette.  As least I am not depressed.

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>>>31/1/19 Start all over again in February

I should not repeat 2018 or 2017 or 2016.  I should not repeat being psychotic.  That means I should not smoke weed and cigarettes.

STOP SUGAR AND STARCH.  STOP INSULIN SURGE.  STOP INFLAMMATION, HYPERTENSION AND DIABETES

If I look back to those crazy moments, I say I should not consider touching dope at all.  Dope is the worst transgressor.  From dope leads to carbs binging.  From there comes urge to smoke and inflammation.

OK then, how about leave everything behind and start new?

• Yes, I shall start with the past 20 years I was under the influence of marijuana.  So time to let go of dope
• Next I am God Almighty to my Universe Within

Shit, why bother putting all these down, you know the issues.  You have drug problem, cigarette problem, sugar problem.

So your 3 Cs are in the order of damages:

• Cannabis
• Cigarettes
• Carbs

That's better.  Now in a glance I can say cigarettes is the least of my worry.

I don't have issue with me being God.  Nor do I have issue with Al Araf 7:7, the Tetrahedron, the afterlife and cunts although I consider cunts are TOTALLY off limits due to the high risk factors. 

I WILL NOT fuck hookers any more.  That is exactly playing with the Russian Roulette.

Now the model is simplified to just no 3 Cs with 16/8 LCHF and exercise am/pm

I should also stop listening to TraXXfm and just focus on Gold 90.5.  I like the selections.  The songs are not that old.

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Yes, back to this issue:  I am God Almighty and I believe in the afterlife.  I also have the undivided loyalty of Al Araf 7:7 as my Star Fleet of 36 members + 2 canines.  That should solve some major dilemmas that I had in the past.

Therefore the purpose of my being is to pursue Virtual Perfection as a God of Sparta 4964, my own universe that I govern autonomously.

There, the Final Empiric.  You think all these comes in one sitting?  It has to go through the distillation process and after a few rounds then only it surfaced.

With these 2 statements I basically liberate my thoughts to think godly thoughts all the time for the sake of my humanly body.

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OK I am satisfied,  Tomorrow is back to the knitting and grinding again.  

One thing for sure, must move with certainty.

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>>>31/1/19 So long January. One month gone.

Yes, the Final Checkmate is just a minor hump along the Path.  It is not a big issue.  It is the ending to an era.

What will be next?  It will be the era of the Athlete Warrior.  I am pretty much a warrior who is an athlete.

So stay focus.  This year is the beginning of my ascend.

• No 3 Cs
• No SS
• 16/8 LCHF
• Exercise am/pm

The outcomes are:

• Breathe fresh air
• Weighing 57 kg
• Run 10 km/hour

Now when I review these goals, I am inspired again.

One month is gone.  Another 4 months to go.

Actually all these are Games Mirror Life.  Although the ascend is a metaphor, the result is real.

Just like the Final Checkmate.  Although it is just an illustration, the outcome is real.  It establishes Chedet and Najib as the lowest Binary Kings and the situation is a deadlock.  That's all.

With this revelation, then I can further affirm that the Highest Human Troika is  BJ/SJ/RR while the Lowest Human Troika is MM/NR/AI.  Like that, with Chedet being the anchor in Wolfsschanze.

However in the inti padu, the Troika is Tigera/AlphaX64/Thor.  Hence my focus is the Troika in the inti padu.  Not the human factor because if I clean up my act at the inti padu, I will enhance my game externally.

By doing so, I choose not to play the external game and thus concentrate on the inner game.

In a way, I am saying that I am purging myself from the social hierarchy in order to pursue my passion to be healthy and happy.

To recap:  I am still on track with my Vision Quest although I got derailed a few times.  Remember public enemy number one are Sugar and Starch.  Lose to them means a total lost.  Therefore SAY NO TO SUGAR AND STARCH:

I went to the Mall today and saw my body in those shops' long mirror.  I look better now.  I wore the tryout and it fits me better.  At least the tummy is not protruding.

So I say, keep doing what I was doing before with the 16/8 LCHF.

This video is a reminder:

No matter what, don't forget this:

I should focus back on showing off to Dr Amapreet and the rest during Ramadan.

31/1/19 Last 2 days of January I kantoi

The 30th and the 31st are the 2 biggest blunders of 2019.  On the 30th I smoked dope and on the 31st I smoked half a cigarette.

Need to get back on track.  I need to feel good again.

One thing for sure, when I am in mania, my judgement got effected.

But the truth is, as I had perceived before, all External Affairs are irrelevant.  I don't know why I even bother. 

If I want to I can disregard everybody.  I should do that.  Stay clear from the external game.  Remember, on the whole Chess Board I am just a rubber band with a steel hook in its circle.

This is pure nonsense.  It doesn't mean anything like the Al Araf 7:7 Chess Board.  I only see what I want to see. 

However, I'm gonna let this photo represent the whole cycle of human evolution until yesterday 30/1/19.  I will see it through the eyes of a child.

As they say somebody's junk is another person's treasure.  These are BJ's treasure rendered.  I like the symmetry of the Final Checkmate.

The only way to deal with it is to flow with the consciousness. 

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I think I over analyze it.  So I say, just archive the it for future reference.  At least I can see my thoughts at the peak of my dope high.  Like everybody else, I tend to talk nonsense when I am stoned.

So can we conclude this as nonsense?

"Not quite Sha," said Jibrail.  "There are some merit to the whole configuration.  Consider it as an inspiration while you are high."

That's the part I don't want.  When I am high I am irrational.

"Then the lesson is, let this be a reminder not to get high again."

Yes, I'll take that into account.  But the truth is, I somehow believe this is the Final Checkmate.

"Then no harm believing in it Sha.  Just don't over analyze.  Take it as a rendition of you thoughts when you are high.  As it is."

OK then...  The Final Checkmate should be focused on the central theme which is a  2x2x2 checkmate  in a 4x4x4x4x4x4x4 locks.  So it's pretty tight. 

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So if I am to take all this in, I say focus on the revelation and  move on.

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What matters now is I got derailed and now I have to get back on my quest to be thin again.  All these are External Affairs, which is probably only 5% of my total existence.

This is a minor distraction.

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31/1/19 Need to stay on track

Yesterday's experience with dope and the carbs binging is a clear sign I shouldn't smoke pot often.  It is damaging at the cellular level.  Not because of the dope directly but the side effects of consuming too much carbs.

Other than that, this past one month is still not in full throttle yet.  I should actually stay away from External Affairs if I am to serve the Universe Within.  That's means I don't listen to TraXXfm. 

OK.

Hey I call Sashi.  The most appropriate person to talk to. 

OK that was a quick hi and bye.

What do I do when the tempreature is up and nothing to eat?  I can read (don't fancy that).  Mall walk is the best idea.

Mopey in on study leave.  I don't feel like loafing at the mall.

I drink coconut instead.

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I figure it out already.  To cut out from External Affairs, I just cut TraXXfm.  That means I cut Cybernetic Loop.

Sharudin Jamal‏ @sharudinjamal 17s17 seconds ago

@radiogreenman @traxxfmofficial #traxxfm Hi, I like this new arrangement. By having this new line up I basically can lock to TraXXfm from 6:00 am until 9:00 pm. Whoever made this arrangement is brlliant.

I like TraXXfm because it's commercial free and the choice of songs is wide.

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Seriously, in the end TraXXfm is just an intermediary.  They are the little people.  I need to reach the Top of the Mind Share.  I think I did that.  So I just use TraXXfm as my SPV.  Only if they perform.  I think 987 Singapore is better.  Nigel and Double D are already past their primes.  I think Aush is still the best.  Next is Els, then only Kong Eu.

Well lets switch to 987 then...

In the mean time  it is Final Checkmate to the Game Mirrors Life.  I will not look back on my actions to date.

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In summary, shut out TraXXfm shut out External Affairs.

I like that very much.

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31/1/19 @@@The 6 Points to Winning Day 31

I will win 1 day at a time:

1. Wake up latest 7:00 am - Woke up at 4:15 am
2. Exercise 1 hour in the morning - Stay home and enjoy a normal feed day
3. Eat 16/8  starting 2:00 pm - Ate nasi lemak and coconut
4. Exercise 1 hour in the afternoon - totally off
5. Eat LCHF at 8:00 pm - Had rice and ice cream
6. Sleep at 11.00 pm - Sleep at 12:00 am 

That's the minimum to win the day.

One month 18/6 LCHF assessment

This one month is a real challenge for me.

Sharudin Jamal‏ @sharudinjamal 23s23 seconds ago

@elsdines @traxxfmofficial #traxxfm Don't expect me to disappear anytime soon. I had been a loyal listener to the station since 2007. Just to wish you a a great trip back to Sibu this CNY in case you depart this weekend. My CNY is with my 1964 Wood Dragons Troika. Cheers...

I guess the biggest challenge is no longer about quit smoking but rather to fight inflammation and TO BE THIN.  When I do this, I automatically take care of cigarettes.

I am still lagging behind with my runs.  Today I try a different strategy.  I do Mall Walk in the morning and see if I can run a decent 30 minutes in the afternoon.

Next to the inflammation, the challenge with being ravenous is quite serious.  Because of that I carbs binge on several occasions.  Since I blew up big time yesterday, today is back to day one.

I didn't expect to get to day 10 is such a feat.  Nevertheless, I will stick to the knitting.  Basically my problems are solved when I go with NO SUGAR NO STARCH.

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Pussies, what will I do without them...

Sharudin Jamal‏ @sharudinjamal 34s34 seconds ago

@elsdines @traxxfmofficial #traxxfm Hey Els, we used to really talk. I even told you about the Raya shirt I bought and the cookie I ate. I miss that. This year I am saying goodbye to Sugar & Starch for life. Not easy. I am training for my Half Marathon Race with TraXXfm too

That is my assessment.  The battle starts at Sugar and Starch.  I got to win this battle.  It's proven that the BP increase with carbs because of the insulin surge.

These readings were taken first thing in the morning on 30/1/19  when I diligently been on LCHF for 4 days.  Next is the BP reading after a whole day long on carbs.

30/1/19  D0 Rest Day

Normal Feed

Dark Phlegm Cough

FINAL CHECKMATE 

Weight: 89.1 kg

BP: 117/88 

Pulse: 74

31/1/19  D1

LCHF

Weight: 89.1 kg

BP:  128/101  

Pulse: 69

When I eat carbs my systolic BP goes up.  

All I need is to make it to day 10.

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Actually I can write off BOTH Chedet 10/7/25 (Wood Ox) and Najib 23/7/53 (Water Snake).  My plan is to replace Chedet with Larry Page 26/3/37 (Water Ox)  and the Blue Avatar with Chris Martin 2/3/77 (Fire Snake).

I think that will strike a balance in the Yin and Yang.  Let see how the stalwarts play.

I still like to see the Final Checkmate executed:

LOL, both have a dagger on each other's throat.  Kinda brutal ending if you ask me.

To stream or no stream:

Sharudin Jamal‏ @sharudinjamal 59s59 seconds ago

@elsDines @traxxfmofficial #traxxfm I was streamed in primary school and then no streaming in middle school and streamed again in high school. I prefer a no streaming. That way we a homogeneous. But then the schools must stream but the classes not. That way we get the best mix

OK back to our discussion, do I write off Chedet or do I write off my Albatross.  Or do I write off both?  I am keen to make them the Binary Kings and form their own Troika with Mr Butt Fucker.  No love lost for the Good, the Bad and the Ugly.  

You find that funny, Sarah?

Malaysia is run by the Good, the Bad and the Ugly.  Not necessarily in that order but basically you are dealing with the 3 Stooges here.

So it is confirmed the Last Kingdom is the Wolfsschanze.

This excursion with TraXXfm is just temporary I suppose.  Come 1st February, I am back to my biznez again.

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When I see BJ, suddenly I have External Affairs to meddle with.  Other than that I just thinking and doing Being God 2019.  That means I am to become a 57 kg Running and Breathing Athlete Warrior.

Sharudin Jamal‏ @sharudinjamal 2m2 minutes ago

@elsDines @thebikz @traxxfmofficial #traxxfm Alright! The Final Hour... my favorite segment. This year I listen more and talk less. That way I am less manic. Have a nice day.

OK that should conclude my intention.  Which is to run every day.

Today I think I just take it easy at the Mall.  Do some shopping perhaps.

I am hungry...

This is where determination counts.  How bad do I want it?

I change my mind.  I stay at home and eat normal today.

Actually eating sugar and starch is abnormal.  But let's admit it.  They are the cheapest alternatives.

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Sharudin Jamal‏ @sharudinjamal 1m1 minute ago

@KongEu3 @traxxfmofficial #traxxfm Hi, I made some enhancements to the FINAL CHECKMATE posting @chedetofficial @NajibRazak @AzminAli . The final outcome is ONE, still but we can also have a Binary and a Troika in Sparta 4964. https://sharudinjamal.blogspot.com/2019/01/30119-final-checkmate.html …

Let them figure out the whole message.  My job is to tell them the options in entering Sparta 4964.  If they are not interested then we consume them eventually but the terms will be different by then.

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OK let's focus back on winning the SS War.

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30/1/19 ###Wrapping up the most weirdest day for me

Well Sarah, on the 30th day I carbs binge like nobody's business.  That is the effect of pot on me.

However, by smoking pot I got to sit down with BJ on his thoughts.  Look at his universe.  Massive...

Sharudin Jamal‏ @sharudinjamal 17s17 seconds ago

@SinghoJulio @traxxfmofficial #traxxfm Hi Julio, been too busy to Tweet you. Just to say that I am following your show whenever I can. Btw, if you can squeeze Holy Diver, I appreciate much. Chiao...

Yes BJ is a giant.  This year he registered in 1 marathon and 3 ultras.  Just think...  I won't go past marathons.  He at 58 is pushing himself beyond the barrier.

You think it's easy for him?  Like me the past injuries are coming back to haunt him.  His injury is protruding on his right foot.

Oh yeah, BJ is a Five O 95.  9:5 is a pretty grim verse:

SAHIH INTERNATIONAL

And when the sacred months have passed, then kill the polytheists wherever you find them and capture them and besiege them and sit in wait for them at every place of ambush. But if they should repent, establish prayer, and give zakah, let them [go] on their way. Indeed, Allah is Forgiving and Merciful.

I don't know what is the implication but for me, this is a very disturbing verse.

RR had a different thought.  He said don't take the verse as a stand alone (yes the Troika did discuss this verse).  I leave it up to you.  Just to let you know, I agreed with RR.

Anyway, my biggest victory is I won my battle with cigarettes.  No craving at all.

I just smoke 2 joints without tobacco.

I do eat lots of carbs though.  My price meeting BJ.

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>>>30/1/19 @@@The 6 Points to Winning Day 30

I will win 1 day at a time:

1. Wake up latest 7:00 am - Woke up at 6:30 am
2. Exercise 1 hour in the morning - Went to Spook instead
3. Eat 16/8  starting 2:00 pm - Carbs all the way 
4. Exercise 1 hour in the afternoon - No go, carbs and rest day today
5. Eat LCHF at 8:00 pm - Back to LCHF
6. Sleep at 11.00 pm - Cannot sleep early tonight.  Got work to do

That's the minimum to win the day.

Today is indeed a weird day.  It is the most productive UNproductive day for me.

This is the FINAL CHECKMATE DAY:

I am the rubber band with the steel hook next to the white cardboard (BJ) north of the white lighter (BJ).  I am the orange lighter (SJ), Najib's Troika.  White mug (BJ) and black mug (SJ), Chedet's Troika.  So cancel out BJ/SJ we are left with Chedet and Najib going after each other's throat.

I decided to be on Najib's side (my Al Butt Ros) and I asked BJ to be with Vader 7:7.  All Najib has to do is prove he is innocent in the murder case and the rest are subject to Rule of Law.  In short, I don't meddle with the theft matters.

It's Vader 7:7 vs the Blue Avatar.  It can be like this FOREVER:  Chedet's final checkmate.  Then again Najib has something that Chedet doesn't have.  The secret:

So Najib may want to play that card as his ace.

This is very interesting game Sarah.

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Thinks about it Sarah, 2 guys with 2 daggers on each other's throats.  That is a perfect ending for me.  Thanks to BJ for preparing the final Chess Set.  All I did was finalize the FINAL CHECKMATE.  What will I do without BJ honey?

Come to think of it what will I do without Chedet and Najib?

100 + 10 (Najib) vs 100 (Chedet).

I like to see my Albatross wins of course.

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30/1/19 ^^^Fine, you want to play the hide and seek game

So be it.  I will not intervene with your ga[v]e.  It's not my neck on the line.

I am here to tell you that we only have 1 spot.  Either Chedet the Almighty or Najib the Blue Avatar.  We can have you two as the Binary Kings in Wolfsschanze and Anwar as your Troika.  That is another model altogether.  The autonomous governance of Wolfsschanze.

I am pretty flexible.  I can have BJ/SJ/RR Troika of my own.  I also have the 1 Ox 6 Dragons Model.  Or I have the 3x3x3 Troikas Model.  I am a very strong player Najib but you are betting against the Grim Reaper and I am his advocate.

But but buuuuut, remember you are my albatross, I said this many times.  You got to win the Althantulya Murder Case.  Then you are clear with me.  As a thief, that you face the Law of the Land or the Rule of Law.

Your neck is on the murder case.

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29/1/19 ***Putting the pieces together

It seems that Bipolar is not something fatalistic.  I still have a fighting chance provided I properly manage my neurotransmitters.

I should not stress myself, smoke cigarettes and pot, eat high carbs and I should stay active throughout my life.

This is the year I start ascending into the life of an Athlete Warrior.  A 22 years Vision Quest.  I had went through 20 years of turbulence.  Now is to climb with confidence.

I got to sleep at 11:00 pm no matter what.

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29/1/19 @@@The 6 Points to Winning Day 29

I will win 1 day at a time:

1. Wake up latest 7:00 am - Woke up 6.45 am
2. Exercise 1 hour in the morning - Feeling fatigue.  Decided to take it easy today.  Rest Day.
3. Eat 16/8  starting 2:00 pm - Took LCHF for breakfast and eat bread with peanut butter for  lunch
4. Exercise 1 hour in the afternoon - Rest Day
5. Eat LCHF at 8:00 pm - Had chicken and veges
6. Sleep at 11.00 pm - Need to make this a habit 

That's the minimum to win the day.

I finished watching the Ted Bundy series.  It kinda leave me with a feeling that I might be going towards a similar path if I didn't control myself.  Pretty scary thought this mental illness is.

Being psychotic means you can't control your deviant actions.

I was amazed that the judge allowed him to defend himself.  My thinking is the judge was just playing along with him to see how crazy can he be.

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I had an early morning LCHF breakfast.  I had been constantly hungry since last night and my energy just fizzled.  This was to see if I can bounce back from this slump.

Definitely today I need to rest.

Desire to smoke cigarettes and dope crept in.  Followed by a mild depression.  Indeed time to rest.

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I slept the whole day through.  Need to ride with the wave.  I am sure as long as I stick to the formula, I will make it.  Keep eating high fat. keep IF and keep exercising daily.

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Quitting Sugar

I still feel fatigued sleepy even after dinner.   Definitely signs of low sugar.  However, I refuse to give in especially after eating bread this afternoon.  I got to break the addiction.  

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The only person that understand my ambition to lose 37 kg is Dr Amapreet.  Therefore I got to prove to her that I can do it in 5 months.  The key here is for me to be fat adapted.  This next 3 months I need to SAY NO TO SUGAR AND STARCH no matter what.

No more 3-in-one coffee.

I need to lose 17 kg by May.  Then I need to lose 20 kg by just consuming water, salt and coffee only for 21 days.  But first I need to fight the SUGAR ADDICTION.

SUGAR, SUGAR, SUGAR.  It is the source of my health problems:

1. Gout
2. Inflammation
3. Mood Swing
4. Depression
5. Cigarette Cravings
6. Desire to smoke dope
7. Overweight
8. High Blood Pressure
9. Prediabetic symptoms
10. Lethargy
11. Short of breath
12. Sleepiness

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I will stick to the Red Formula:

18/1/19 

The Red Formula  

 So  I am talking about getting rid of the 3 Cs by tackling the SS through 16/8 LCHF and sweating am/pm.

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I am already on the right track.  The ultimate test is the disappearance of inflammation and the blurry eyes in the morning.

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