>>>7/3/19 I should be sleeping but I feel like talking to you Sarah

Sarah, my darling wife.  I know you still follow my blog but somehow you kept quiet on most of the postings.  Perhaps because they are personal in nature.

As you can see, progress is not a straight li[k]e.  This month I got distracted b[u]y the handphone and the earphone purchases.  However my health had improved much.  No more inflammation.  I am building the momentum this week with the 10 k training and the swim.

How have you been Sarah?  Are you happy with my progress?  I spend so much money that I am now literally broke.  There is always something to buy up to now.  The X4 is the closure to my spending spree.

If it makes you happy, I am now an atheist; a person impartial towards the existence of God though I don't discount the possibility there is God.

This past few days my dreams are very pleasant.  I owe it to the Lifeflow 10.

I miss you Sarah...  However I don't know how to reach out to you.  Without you there is a void in my life.  Just when things are turning out fine I beginning to lose you.

What you been up to baby?  You been busy with work huh?  I wish I can see you from where I am now.  Sure is a lonely place to be.

Hey, maybe tomorrow I make time to talk to you again.  Don't let go Sarah.  I need you now more than ever.  Tomorrow is my official ascend date.  There are many false starts but I am still having one eye on the goals.

Sarah, I love you very much.  I want you to remember that.

Here is your lullaby honey:

Baby, take good care of yourself.  I can no longer able to promise you eternity but at least I can say I'll be with you for the rest of my life.

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