23/3/19 ###Back to what matters

There are always things to derail me out of my track.  It is important to reinforce the vision until I become relentless.

My driving factor now is no other than to be thin and fast.  These are [b]y anchors:

To be thin is to lose 30 kg

To be fast is to complete the 10 k Training

This past 2 days I got distracted by External Affairs.  Not good at all.  In a way being a Hedonist Hermit is good.  It is pure indulgence; read, run, write, repeat.  Those are the delights coupled with the best songs from Kiss92.  A winning formula.

My goal for this month is to break 79 kg.  I got 1 week to do that.

Next, I will insulate my mind on achieving my goals.  After March, I have 2 months to go.  I just shut off Twitter and Facebook.  TraXX is only up to 10:00 am.

No news either.  If it is big enough of a news, my wife will update me.

I still want to hit 57 kg by 31/5/19.  The fastest is the Water Fast.  Sigh...  I am still training for the 10 k.

I'll do Water Fast in June.  I'll do it after the 10 k Training is done.

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In the end, everything counts but nothing matters.  That is the attitude I am taking.  Even with Sparta 4964.  What matters is the Universe Within.  The Buddha said with our thoughts we create our world.  All these while I try to keep my world small.  However, the smaller my world is the bigger my mental horizon.

The attitude I am trying to adopt is "let it be".  I execute my thoughts as it comes and then I move on.  That way I will not have any remorse.  The thoughts are not necessary the right thought but I entertain them anyway because each thought is a door opening to many other doors.

Regardless the outcome of the thought externally, by purging the thoughts that passed, I am being true to myself.  In doing so I am free from worry and doubt.

There are times that I do wonder if my decision is correct.  Then I said to myself, this is my mind telling me what to do.  It must have known more than me who are operating at the conscious level.  I have to trust my mind because it is operating at the unconscious competent.

No second guessing here.  I just do.

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The Nash Equilibrium

Nash Equilibrium is an outcome reached that, once achieved, means no player can increase payoff by changing decisions unilaterally. It can also be thought of as "no regrets," in the sense that once a decision is made, the player will have no regrets concerning decisions considering the consequences

In a way I am applying  the game theory to the players I chose.  In this case I don't know which players will play but I have to prepare for the multiple scenarios.  The only way I can play is to deal with the cards that I have.  Not from the other players deck because my cards are the cards known to me.

The other players may choose to play based on the cards I passed to them or they may choose to play others games,  The best possibility is they deal with my cards but they apply their own rules.  The worst scenario is they choose not to play.

Nevertheless the objective is to win without even them playing.  It is back to Sun Tzu's Art of War, which is to win without fighting.

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