I will win 1 day at a time:
- Wake up latest 7:00 am - Woke up 7:30 am
- Exercise 1 hour in the morning - I lost the momentum
- Eat 16/8 starting 2:00 pm - Ate curry puff in the morning
- Exercise 1 hour in the afternoon - No go. It rained.
- Eat LCHF at 8:00 pm - Yes, managed to get back on track again
- Sleep at 11.00 pm - I will sleep on the dot tonight
That's the minimum to win the day.
I'd been thinking about John Nash documentary and concluded that all these things I had been going through are just a play of the mind. The existence of God and the afterlife are signs of mental illness. Even if they do exist, they have very little meaning to my life now. I want to put all those experiences in the past. I want to live in the now. Oblivious of the signs. However if I do that I will be dull.
I will be ignoring the cohesiveness of the numbers and the occurrences of 7:7 and the manifestation of the common miracles.
I really don't know Sarah. Am I really being crazy? I do share some of John Nash's patterns. So if I categorize my condition as schizophrenic then I should disregard everything as nonsense.
The best is to disregard the existence of god altogether. I think I just do that. Then 2019 is truly a fresh start. I have to accept that all the experiences I had for the past 20 years a[re] symptoms of schizophrenia.
I shall no longer dwell in matters pertaining to God and the afterlife.
I'd been thinking about John Nash documentary and concluded that all these things I had been going through are just a play of the mind. The existence of God and the afterlife are signs of mental illness. Even if they do exist, they have very little meaning to my life now. I want to put all those experiences in the past. I want to live in the now. Oblivious of the signs. However if I do that I will be dull.
I will be ignoring the cohesiveness of the numbers and the occurrences of 7:7 and the manifestation of the common miracles.
I really don't know Sarah. Am I really being crazy? I do share some of John Nash's patterns. So if I categorize my condition as schizophrenic then I should disregard everything as nonsense.
The best is to disregard the existence of god altogether. I think I just do that. Then 2019 is truly a fresh start. I have to accept that all the experiences I had for the past 20 years a[re] symptoms of schizophrenia.
I shall no longer dwell in matters pertaining to God and the afterlife.
So like John Nash, I have to deny EVERYTHING that happened to me in the past 20 years as nonsense and move on from there.
However, there is a big disclaimer... That I do admit I have a vivid imagination. Therefore I shall relate to Al Araf 7:7 as a legacy to my madness and nothing more. That is because Al Araf 7:7 are my means of communicating with my inner self.
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