In a world where everything is connected, I chose to be in isolation. I particularly don't like crowds. Being alone gives me room to be with my thoughts.
If I need other complementary thoughts, I just read books. Therefore I am a mission specific person. Anything I need answer to, I just get it from an author; albeit in paper or digital. I don't fancy opinions. I don't entertain small talks. I just go for the crux of the matter. Save time sieving through the information wasteland.
In a way, I am a hunter. I know what I want and I go for it. Much like writing this blog. I love writing and not necessary to a specific audience. Thus, I write to myself. I write because writing is a panacea for loneliness. The challenge is for me to to turn loneliness into solitude. One is a nuisance, the other is a gift from heaven.
If I need a company, I can always rely on a few companies that I keep. They are sufficient to keep me occupied with my social interactions. I don't need the whole world to like me. I like me just being who I am, a solitary being.
There is one skill I haven't mastered. That is to be in isolation as long as I desire. By right I should remain in isolation indefinitely. Unfortunately I also yearn for interaction though it is very minimal compared to most people.
I like being all by myself. I perceived loneliness as a privilege just like I treasure the luxury of time I have for being alone.
If I have enough money to sustain my livelihood, I will find myself staying here in Bandar Utama, in this very room, minding my own business and only follow a set of routine day in and day out without having to talk to anybody beyond what is necessary to buy things and to... well that should be sufficient.
I don't need people if I have means to sustain myself.
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