At times a person must go through the physical pain in order to make it through. He needs to be mentally tough to do that.
The mind as I discovered is a powerful tool. It can pull the body through the toughest situation. But it is the body that endures. As long as the body can move, it will carry on one step further.
My issue now is the body. My feet are riddled with inflammation. Now it is even worse, the body refuse to shut down when it suppose to do so. The outcome is I tend to sleep during the day and wide awake at night like right now.
With the body like this, my only hope is a tough mind. With all the nagging and bitching, I have to maintain a positive outlook.
I cannot let go of sanity, peace of mind and robust health. The issue here is how do I get past the physical pain. Do I recede or do I persist? One thing I know is I have to exercise every day. Which means minus the day I have inflammation, I must sweat.
On those days I don't sweat, I must do mental aerobics. In other words, I read and write. I have a library of books. I shall read all my books, boring or interesting, relevant or not at least once. These books are at one time define who I was. I will read them all. This is my sanctuary and the books are my friends. If it takes 2 years to finish them, I will still do it if that whats it takes to be mentally tough. And if that is not enough I read Aqis's and Sarah's books. That is after I read all my eBooks.
On top of that, I cannot stop writing. I will write whatever comes to mind. Just to keep my mind alert.
This is my preparation to be a Solitude Runner. I shall minimize social media and browsing the internet for the next thing to buy. There is always something to buy if you look for one. I will even stop spending on supplements and oils when my stock finishes. What's the point? I still have inflammation despite all the measures that I take.
Damn the psychotic medications...
No matter what, I had decided that this is the year I ascend. Fuck God, fuck religion and fuck society. The way up is personal excellence. I don't owe anybody a living. This year, no matter what I will train hard to lose weight and to run in the Half Marathon.
I will remain in isolation to pursue my goals. Let the books and the internet be my friends.
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