I will win 1 day at a time:
- Wake up latest 7:00 am - Woke up 11:45 am
- Exercise 1 hour in the morning - Goner
- Eat 16/8 starting 2:00 pm - Ate rice and chicken. Then had cake.
- Exercise 1 hour in the afternoon - Still not fully recovered
- Eat LCHF at 8:00 pm - Ate LCHF but had 3-in-1 coffee
- Sleep at 11.00 pm - I sleep at 3:00 am tonight.
That's the minimum to win the day.
Today is actually a lay back day. I woke up late, I don't exercise and I ate carbs. I should feel bad about it but instead I feel pretty satisfied.
As for the new hand phone and the earphone, I decided to hold back the purchases. My current phone is still functional and I can wait for the earphone.
What I should be doing is save my money and use the interest to pay for the items. I should not lose my principal.
After all I had done all the shopping for half the year. So as a strategy for this next 6 months, I will save RM200 a month. Until I finishes my current supply, I will stop spending on anymore supplies. That should be the next 6 months.
I must achieve my RM1 k yearly savings target before I start spending again.
Today I experimented with contacting as many people as I can on WhatsApp. The result is a dismay. I am better off on my own. Dealing with people is a nuisance. Then, there is Norlia who contacted me to borrow money, AGAIN!
The focus is on the savings. The more I save the more I can buy with the interest. There must be a balance. I think a minimum of RM1 k a year savings is just nice.
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On a different note, I think I should aim to run 21 km once every quarter at 2 hours gold, 2 1/2 hours silver and 3 hours bronze.
I have all the tools... All I need is the ABILITY TO RUN. Then I run Bukit Kiara. This week I rest my legs for tennis on Sunday.
Most importantly, I need to get back on track with my diet. Salleh wanted to meet. I think I don't want to waste my time. Not with Salleh, Glen or BJ for that matter. I just be by myself.
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In the end, if I can achieve health and happiness for the next 22 years, I can consider myself a success. I have to fight my own dragons. At first I thought I have Sarah on my side. Turned out there is no Sarah. I was being delusional. Who will bother to hangout with somebody who has nothing?
I am all alone.
I like it like that. I enjoy the loneliness. By being lonely I can immerse in my own world. Now even better. I got Spotify. I can listen to songs and I can listen to podcasts. It is better; selective listening. Then there are Google, Twitter and You Tube. I even have FMT to feed me the news, I got Putlocker for movies. In addition I have TraXXfm if I want to listen to people rambling. All from one central point - my XC-603.
In addition, I have the 2 malls. I have Bukit Kiara and Lembah Kiara.
All it takes is for me to be thin. When I achieve that, viola! I have a whole new world opened to me. I can wear my old clothes again. No inflammation and I can keep running and running.
Living is what I do between running. I run for my own satisfaction. I run because I love getting high on the neurotransmitters. On top of that, running is about being less. Most importantly, less weight; which is what I had been aiming since 2014.
I have bigger dreams to pursue than socializing. I want to be an accomplished runner until I am old. In the past the inhibitors are cigarettes and weight. I had tackled cigarettes. Now is to tackle weight. Hopefully that should take care of the inflammation.
I decided to stop dealing with the Coconut Man. There is a certain level of people I should deal with. Below that level, I will face problem. This is true in the case of Muru, Dwen and Ravi in the past.
Actually I find the arrangement with Sarah was pretty neat. I just need a company, if there is such a person. Unfortunately there is none. All these while I am all by myself.
And so, I decided I just be my own best friend. Zizi is hopeless. The only true friend I have is Munek. I just need Zizi as my wing man.
So much for having friends. In the end it is Lizzie and the kids that are my true gems.
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