Today is the day. I had fought cigarette addiction, inflammation and mania. Now is to fight the depression and continue with my Half Marathon training.
It boils down to food. As long as I can refrain from Sugar and Starch, I will be able to handle the various ailments.
I should not lose sight of my goals although there are temporary setbacks.
I am more or less on my own here. Am I going to define the rest of my life with all the shortcomings or do I rise above the mediocrity?
I can *c[l]ose to fizzle away or I can fight like a true Athlete Warrior.
* You know something Sarah, deep down inside I know you will be with me to the end. I got to prove to you that I can make it through.
Now the goal is 57 kg. I feel a bit worn out these past couple of days. It is the down cycle. So the focus is to fight depression.
It started when I feel extremely fatigued to the point I turned back when I reached the foothill of Bukit Kiara on 30/1/19.
I should not lose sight by this temporary setback.
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Baby, living in isolation does take it's toll. Too bad my only true friend is a pothead. Otherwise I can meet him often to run together.
I miss you much too. Living with Bipolar is like riding a roller coaster. One day I am up and the next day without warning I am down again.
What's the deal with Google anyway? My postings are no longer a priority. Why? Am I no longer in favor? It used to be that whatever I posted in Dreams of Mirrors got 2nd place in the search list of the title I Googled.
I am so tired honey... Last 2 days I had been sleeping throughout the days.
Could be the *sig[ht] that I am overexerting myself. The week before I had been pretty active.
* So you agree with me. I need to pace myself. Don't want to burnout too soon. Maybe this month I should exercise once a day only.
Sarah my darling, I cannot do this alone. I am not strong enough to handle this all by myself. I need you to be there. Just be there... Don't leave me on my own. I still need a support system to make it through. It's not much. A bit of encouragement like what you are doing now helps.
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Hey on a lighter note Najib is bouncing back. He is playing the Joker card. The last card in the deck of cards that is:
He is currently known as the King of Trolls.
You see Sarah my love, without the mania, Najib is just another cloud in the coffee to me. He is not significant at all. Just a man waiting for his fate to be sealed. I however have to hand it out to him, he doesn't crack under pressure. That is his trait.
Hey I feel like listening to my all time favorite:
Let see what Brenda thinks of these 2 songs:
You know Sarah, I think I make a better DJ on my own.
@NajibRazak Hahaha Malu apa Bosku. So you decide to play the last card in the deck huh? The Joker is pretty powerful card if you know how to use it. Let see if you can beat the Ace of Spade @chedetofficial As I said many times, you are my Albatross.
You know something... With the new king on the throne, Najib may get a royal pardon. The king is from his state, Pahang.
Well, again... Clouds in my coffee:
Now I am in a better mood.
Sweetie, how about a lullaby for the night?
How about this song?
I love you so much honey. My life will be barren without you.
Goodnight...
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